This post is from about 5hours ago. I don’t even know how I got through – or out of – it except that I realize at this moment that I used some DBT skills I’ve been learning. Sometimes I realize it’s almost a miracle that they even work … When they do …
Sometimes it seems life was so much easier when I just had depression and not all this other stuff too. But then … When was that, really?
been having a massive BPD moment for the last hour. BPD hour I guess. OMFG. i can’t say i’m glad I don’t have any weapons, but jesus christ the world is lucky that I don’t.
i just fucking lose it. and I get lost in it. and sometimes i want to get lost in it. i get SO FUCKING MAD and i lose all trace of an appetite and i want to get the FUCK away from every single person on this earth … at least, if i can’t eviscerate them … or blow dozens of bullet holes into their wretched, vile, and useless carcasses.
welcome to BPD hour, with your host, me.